To My Love
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
Do you know that I spotted you just the other night? You were with your friends looking so happy and carefree. Don't think you saw me and it's just as well. It has been a while, I thought I was over you, but I was so wrong. Seeing you again unlocked a flood of memories. And I spent another sleepless night trying to relive the wonderful moments we had together.
We have been friends for so long and I have shared the deepest of secrets with you, shed the bitterest tears in your presence, and gave you my warmest smile. You fill me with so much tender sweetness, it is intoxicating. I still adore you, even though I'm deeply hurt by all the things you'd done to me.
Who would have thought that we met by accident at a supermarket? But we hit it off immediately. It could have been an everlasting relationship, but harsh reality prevailed. The more we're together, the more harm I received. You assured me that you will not do anything to make me feel bad. You can stop pretending now. I get it... that is why I had to walk away. I felt so much heaviness. I forced myself to face the truth that as wonderful as you are, you can never change. While you will never admit it, but deep down, I know that you didn't mean the things you had done.
I confess that there has neither been a day I didn't think of you nor a night I didn't dream of you. Wondering how you are doing and what new addition has come into your colourful life thus far. I still miss your smell, your looks. I thought we connected beautifully and the joy you bring is eternally burned into my soul. Without you, it is nothing but pain now. Why is it that only you can make me feel this way? If you only knew how happy I was to have you and how I struggled to keep my life together when I lost you. I made a promise to myself though. That I will keep all the ardour I felt for you safe within my heart till my last breath.
Even though you will never read this, I just want you to know that you will always have a special place in my heart. There is no regret knowing you. If time can be turned back and if I had the chance to experience being with you again, I'll gladly take it. Please always remember that I'd loved and adored you since the time we met and till now.
I love you, Ben... and Jerry.
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