In motion
Tuesday, August 30, 2005
I won't start with the horrid stuff that came my way as I am trying to leave those behind. Nearly all I ever knew or hold true got turned upside down in a single week. Anyway, am just going to look forward now.
Blogging is almost like exercising. When you've taken a long break from it, it's hard to get back the momentum. But after a session, you'll somehow feel better. Considering that I feel as if I just survived a near fatal accident that left nearly all my limbs broken, it's back to to baby steps for now until I can build myself back up again.
I've started work at the beginning of August as a team teacher (trainee teacher) at a school for special education. My class is always bustling with activities, dramas, heartful moments and whatever things those books don't tell you. It was a humbling experience for me as in the process of learning more about my students, I also learnt more about myself, my perceptions and my emotional maturity. Being stern is out of my normal repertoire and it I am starting to learn that it may be time to step out off my comfort zone. I am glad that I started work in the school without any prior experience as I did not bring along with me any expectations. My mind was uncluttered with "what should be" and I hope to use that condition as a sponge to soak up as much wisdom as my mind can take.
I would say that August is a month of "Discovery" for me. I've experienced, first hand, the highs and lows of working inside a classroom, as well as learnt a little more about the students and teachers I am working with in school.
During the lows, especially when I lose my temper, I felt disgusted with myself for 1) allowing my negative emotions to take over and 2) to vent it on the child (whether or not he/she provoked it). But oh well, hopefully I'll become wiser as the months roll by.
I got a new car. It's an Audi A4 and it's name is Hitomi X. "Hitomi" because it's just a cool sounding name. And "X" because it is eXpensive. I've added a bodykit and changed it's stock 16" rims to 17". Sure grips the road like a dream.
I've also signed up for the Singapore Marathorn at the end of the year. Don't think I will be able to run the full 40 plus km without collapsing, so I'm only taking the sissy 10km run. Been training on the treadmill for a couple of weeks now and I got up to 5km. Now it's a matter of dragging myself outside to run in a non air-conditioned environment... |
